I love to sit and reflect on the past.
I probably do it too often. It can’t hurt to look back and see how far I have come. I talked with my S about things the other day. One of the things that stood out to me was how I viewed submission, and how it was beneficial. I didn’t realise that former me even really had this bias. However, I totally did.
A part of me wondered why S craved and needed it so badly. Even when I took ownership of him, a part of me still wondered whether this was a good thing for him. There were times when I even wondered whether I could do it.
Submission is what he needs.
He is submissive.
It is where his soul is happy.
It is where he is happiest. It is, well, it where his soul is where it is supposed to be.
This isn’t for everyone. No-one should be pressured into submitting to someone they don’t want to. It also brought up how I viewed my Domination. I’m happier when I am in the Dominant role within a relationship. It is where I am happiest and strongest. Besides not being ready. I think that was a lot of issues with my previous relationships. Although that is another large and ranty blog about a range of things, lol.
Being vulnerable to your partner is not a sign of weakness. I love when we switch although this is natural for us.
Before My beloved S, I don’t think I really understood it before and this, is perfect.
We laugh, play games together, watch movies, chat about anything and everything, yet with a click of My fingers. It all changes. My beloved S is always Mine. Always. Yet the protocol level changes.
I am so incredibly blessed.